First time you cut.

[xxHeartsxxOnxxFirexx]

The first time I cut was in 5th grade, it was because one of my peers told me to go kill myself cause nobody wanted me there and no one would miss me (my original plan had been suicide, but my mother walked in the front door so I had to run back to my room and thankfully, she never found out) and I used a butcher knife...or maybe it was a steak knife. Some extremely huge sharp knife.

[randomgirl]

do ur parents know?

[xxHeartsxxOnxxFirexx]

No. They can NEVER know. They'd probably get really pissed off at me and scream and shit and make it worse. And I'm afraid my step-dad may hit me or something I said anything. I can't imagine life without my blade anyways.

[AlexLG]

(03-11-2010 12:01 PM)randomgirl Wrote:  do ur parents know?

Mine don't. Today I picked up a random sharp object that was on the table and made a cutting motion on my left arm (my cutting arm) in front of my mom..

[randomgirl]

my mom doesnt know either and if she found out i think she would care more about her reputation then me

[xxHeartsxxOnxxFirexx]

The other day, I actually sat out in the living room in short sleeves with my arm propped up and out in full view with a fresh wound and nobody even paid attention. That was the only time I've actually tried to tell them. I don't think I could just say it, I want them to notice it if they have to know. But I've decided I don't want them to know.

[randomgirl]

yeah when i first started i wanted somebody to notice but nobody ever did now i dont want anybody to notice thats why i mostly cut my legs more than my arms

[AlexLG]

It scares me too think about what my moms reaction would be

[xxHeartsxxOnxxFirexx]

I just don't get the same feeling when cutting my legs. I still do it, though. I cut just about every place I can, so it's really hard to hide.

[randomgirl]

most of my scars are starting to fade away because i havent cut in a while but there are some that just wont go away

[xxHeartsxxOnxxFirexx]

I know how that goes. I'm not sure if I'll ever be able to wear shorts/t-shirts again.

[Gizmo2683]

my mom saw scars..i told her my friends cat scratched me. ive used wire, envelope opener.

[xXBloody-Kisses-Xx]

In 8th grade. Lots of reasons, stuff builds up ya know? I haven't really quit since then, though I have tried. I always end up doing it again. First time I used a razor out of an eyeliner sharpener. It didn't hurt too bad so I did it every time I was upset, since it worked. D;

[randomgirl]

mine was a piece of glass that i broke off of my mirror

[XxXlonlyXxX]

i don't cut.......... i have tried it but my parents almost beat me to death for it