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Nevar

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About Nevar

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  • Birthday 04/25/1998

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    Female
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    Ask.fm- @zombieoutbreakresponseteam
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    Bisexual

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  1. Nevar

    Whats your fav? - Games

    Fortnite at the moment lol.
  2. Nevar

    Mommy.

    Indeed? Aha..
  3. Nevar

    Mommy.

    There was a girl, crazed look in her eyes. So much had happened throughout her life. Mommy on drugs, daddy always away. Growing up fast, struggling with the pressure. There was a girl so innocent and sweet. Only a matter of time and she'd start to be beat. Home everyday to the lectures and screaming. "Go get changed and start the cleaning!" Momma always said work comes before school. Slowly her grades plumeted to 0.2. Mommy's a drunk now and she never sees dad. Different men being brought home, moms new lovers she assumes. They start out alright but as time goes by, they are just as abusive as mommy.. Its a never ending fucking fight! Mom not coming home for multiple nights, leaving her kids but to her it's alright. Not that they minded because that was their break, but when she came home wasted as ever. Things would get bad and it never gets better. Guilt trips pulled, it's all their fault. Never the moms.. isn't she supposed to be the adult? There was a girl so hurt and broken. Filled inside with countless emotions. She thought about so many things she should say. But when it came down to it in her mind it remaind. Downhill the further she went, imprisoned in her own self resentment. Depression, Anxiety, and post traumatic stress disorders were next. Then came self mutilation through various ways. Suicidal thoughts became an everyday thing. Contemplating death, isn't it a beautiful thing? Here she grew into a sad excuse for a person. Here she's wondering if life is even worth it. The pain, the anger, the hopeless feelings. Is this temporary or a permanent thing? Does it get better or is this how it remains? Does this nightmare ever have a happy ending? Will mommy get better, will she get to see dad? Can she be happy, can she put it in the past? Only time can tell how this story will end, and that is how her story begins.
  4. Nevar

    So. Friends.

    I suck at making friends IRL so, any takers? 😂
  5. Nevar

    would you rather?

    Either way you would be hated, so why not do it classy. I'd choose the nice house. Would you rather be able to breathe under water or control fire?
  6. Nevar

    Is fire hot

    When was it established that water isn't wet?
  7. Well it's been forever since I've been on here. Here's to another three years of no activity. ✌😂

  8. You know. Just fuck everything. I'm gone. Fuck this place, this world. I'm done.

  9. Nevar

    I'm going insane.

    I'm sorry you're going through it as well. I'm here if you need me
  10. Nevar

    I'm going insane.

    Not just yet.
  11. Nevar

    I'm going insane.

    Damn, that sounds good right about now.
  12. Nevar

    I'm going insane.

    I have tried getting help. I've been on medications, I've tried talking to my parents, I've been to therapy. None has helped. Maybe I'll try going to an institution.
  13. Don't worry you'll forget about me soon. So don't waste your tears on me when I'm gone.

  14. Nevar

    I'm going insane.

    I can't take this. This feeling of being alone, of never being good enough, of being so depressed. What happened? I used to be happy, I used to be normal. But that's all changed. Maybe it's from having no one.. Maybe it's from the life I lived.. Or maybe it's from all the horrible things people have said to me. I'm getting tired. Tired of everything. I'm tired of being sad, I'm tired of being lonely, I'm tired of feeling worthless, tired of being made fun of, tired of people walking out, tired of pretending, tired of keeping it all bottled up, I'm tired I being tired. And I'm tired I breathing. I don't want to be here. I just want it all to go away. It gets better. It's just a phase. Just be happy. You'll be fine. Everything will work out they say. It doesn't get better. I'll laugh in the face of anyone who tells me otherwise. You can not tell me it will "get better" I've been like this for EIGHT FUCKING YEARS!! I've been contemplating suicide for a while now. It's crossed my mind a million times before, I've just been too much of a coward to do it. But one day I'll get the guts. Because I'm not going to make it out of this war alive. I'm loosing my mind. I feel things that aren't there and the voices in my head are killing me. I'm just done. I don't care anymore. I don't want to feel this pain anymore. I've tried so hard. I've tried to make it. I don't want to die but I can't live. I don't know when It's gonna happen, but it will. Eventually. And then, I'll finally be free.
  15. Late at night is when the depression hits you the hardest ;-;

    1. xXlostinmyworldXx

      xXlostinmyworldXx

      Wow, is that ever the truth. You can only know that from experience.

    2. Nevar

      Nevar

      Defiantly.. And yes it sucks :/

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