The guy I want more then anything..who used to be my best friend and basically lived with me.. wants nothing to do with me and has a girl kinda and will never ever like me and were not even friends really anymore. I lost that friend. Another guy iv liked won't be my friend either and blocked me actually. So that's two. I really cared about. Anyone who likes me is a total NO. The other guy doesn't seem to even wanna talk but even if we talk its always sex x.x ugh... And then I keep dreaming of Austin (my ex who turned out really really bad but I swear is my soulmate) every night...everything's