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Now, like all of us I have a certain history. Some people do not understand how it is when you are about the abyss. Some have no idea. Well, you always told me that life is getting better. I have until now, never felt that anything is better. One day I went home and waited for my best friend. He told me he will come. I have never lost hope, why? Because hope dies last. I looked out the window and my eyes became wet. A tear ran down my cheek, and finally fell (dropped) to ground. I felt a pang, in my heart, that told me something wasn't right. Sudden images, voices and memories flashed through my head. I grabbed my head and didn't let go, I crashed into the corner and started to cry harder as possible. As if from nowhere the phone rang & I picked it up. It was a call from the hospital, they said he was dead I couldn't answer, I could only cry. A fucking bastard, I'd say. (that was me) I grapped my things,went into my car and drove to the hospital. I was so sad but also so fucking angry. I ran in,to the ordination. They told me it was room '126'. I ran faster as I never did. Heartbeats .. My heart was beating faster than ever before ... Barley .. became breath .. As I arrived there,I opened the room to see him .. The room was cold .. nothing in it .. just emptiness .. .. He was so lonely,he didn't deserve that .. I looked at his face .. and started to cry .. .. One look at him and I felt complete .. fucking perfect .. He was the one who made me feel perfect,beautiful,amazing,complete, .. he made me happy,cheerep me up and now knowing that he's gone .. was hurting more than ever .. it felt like a part of you has gone with you .. my feeling froze up .. all that what was left were our memories .. I came closer and lied down next to him .. Face to face,Cheek to cheek,nose to nose,lip to lip,arm to arm,chest to chest, .. I felt satisfied for what was left of 'him'. I enjoyed the last moment with 'him'. I put my hand on his heart,my head on his chest .. I felt that his soul was here .. You were the person .. I couldn't live without .. I never have let this all go .. I always stayed with you .. I pray for you .. to come back .. Because I loved you more than anything else .. Because it was 'you' .. a part of me has gone with you .. ♥