Hell of mine

[BipolarBear]

driven into the black once again by my own anxiety

i know that soon that will be the end of me
i cant handle the over all urge to tear my veins apart over my worries
but i keep in the back of my mind these troubles are only flurries
i carve this mask of optomisim and hope
when only that will lead me to the end of a rope
knowing that without that one thing all of my hope will not help
and with that false hope will lead me into this world i call hell

living in that hell im not able to face the day
the pain is to excruceating in this bed i stay
smiling hurts, so do hello's
refusing to eat, even simple Jell-O
the physical pain is easy to deal with what hurts is feeling alone
but i have to silence the pain, not even a groan
so i have to carve a mask of happiness from tears
and maintain this i must so i dont envoke friends fears

what kills me the most is knowing i lie
hiding the fact, i just want to die
when i know over all it will matter to one
but for her i must stay, so i can share the fun
that one smile is my only fuel
for the glimmer of hope i have for my life to rule
because trapped by my mental health, under lock and key
its not because of you, im why im not free
but only for you will i fight through the night
through hell and terror, the fuel to my fight
~Ricky~

[SaveRockMixpop]

awsome 

u really show that in pain u don't give up cause there piece of happiness u fight for...

I envy that

[Guest Moon_Panda]

it realy is pretty good.