holding back

[Guest Moon_Panda]

holding back all my tears 

cos you don't want to hear 

what i haveto say

and who i wanna blame

holding back every word

and every thaught that you never heard

crying, screaming, kicking, drowning

cos inside i am dieing

 

every breath that i take

and every smile that i fake

just to hold back my tears

so you wouldn't haveto hear

becasue i love you soo

but i haveto let you go

your happyness is more to me

then my own beautiful scenery

 

i don't want to see you sad

and even when you feel bad

i'll still try to comfort you

even when i'm feeling blue

cos i just want to see you smile

and take you even higher

cos i just want to hear you laugh

even if i haveto wear a stupid looking hat 

 

can't you see i love you so

but if i must i'll let you go

cos i don't want to break your heart

even if you tear mine apart

just let me look into your eyes

let me feel like i can fly

and you will never haveto hear

how i choke on my own tears

 

please give me this moment once

i don't need a second chance

i'll leave you here without those words

but only when at least once i'm heard

baby i love you so

but if you want i'll let you go

so just tell me what to do

cos everything i do, i'll do it just for you

 

and someday you will get the call

that i woun't love you anymore

i don't want to hurt you then 

so it might be better if we end here

before we get too close

before we  have too much hope

just one kiss before i leave

and you woun't haveto hear me bleed.