catsofanime123 Posted May 29, 2013 Share Posted May 29, 2013 Pictures not mine, yadda yadda yadda. Tell me what you think, constructive criticism would be nice... Imagine being meImagine us switching placesWell think about thisI wake up from a damn nightmare everydayI find some sort of motivation to get up and get myself all ready and prepared to face the dayThough I drag my feet because the pain I hold within feels like weights on my shouldersI finish up and then wait for about ten minutes in the cold and snowy outside worldWishing I could stay forever, because my heart is about as cold as it is outsideI sit with peers whom majority of them I don't likeFinally arriving at the jail of a "school"Spending about the first fifteen minutes with the one person you try to get your dirty hands onI lug myself through four classes with people I utterly despiseIn the middle of that I go to a crowded yet excruciatingly lonely lunchAfter suffering through a pitiful school session, I get home I immediately run to my only safe place in the downstairs bathroom and lock my doorclickI rummage through the drawers in panicSearching as if I was finding the medicine that would keep me alive if I only had six seconds to liveShifting through various cosmeticsPushing aside hair care productsUntil I finally find the small rectangle of pointed steel I was looking for and gave it a kiss of reliefIt cuts my bottom lip in the process"Oops"I slowly lick the blood off my intensely bleeding lipI take in the flavourI savor the taste of my own bloodAnd I crave for moreI wet my forearms for easier movementI take my place on the bathroom counterI star to play "Therapy" on repeat because it's like I'm talking to myselfTherapy I'm a walking travestyBut I'm smiling through everything"Smiling" is my simulatorI proceed to slowly mark a smile on my armI go off track at the corner of the mouth and have the blade run to wherever it pleasesI start to cryNot for the cutsThe blade feels nice and painless gliding across my smooth skinI cry because I feel like a fucking waste of spaceI cry of the constant hatred of myselfI cry of the nonstop paranoia I feel because you make me feel like I'll lose the most important thing to meYou make me feel like you'll take him for yourselfYou make me feel brokenI repeat what I did to my arm and imitate the infliction on the otherI finish shortly afterThe blood stains the sink as I wash off my armsI fulfill my craving and slide my tongue across the bloodstained blade to save the last drops of beautiful crimson blood from going to wasteI stash the razor back to where it was put last and walk back upstairs, ignoring my happy relatives and sprinting up to my roomI lay awake for a few more hoursTexting the love of my life, and staring at the ceilingAs the lights in the house go out, so do IHe says goodnightAnd that's where my real nightmare startsI start to cry much harder than beforeI suffer silently through my miseryInternally screamingTossing and turning in my bedI claw at the sheetsSlowly dying, slowly fadingI wish at this time I'd dieDeath would sweep me off my feet and take me home foreverI scream in the lace of my pillowScreaming and begging for mercyNo...Stop...D-don't touch him!Back away!GET OUT!!!I dream of you, taking my life long prizeMy happiness...My sanity...My life...And you rip him from my handsYou control him, and he falls for youHe pushes me away and pulls you in for a kissHe kicks dirt at me and walks away, holding youI lie where he left me and cryThat should be me!I then suddenly wake up soaked in tearsI go back to sleep five minutes laterThe whole damn thing repeats itself 'til I get up for goodThis whole chain of events is like a broken record that nobody will fix or stop playingIt constantly repeatsAll dayEvery dayThis entire thing repeats for meEvery.Single.Day.And it's all because of YOUSo instead of asking the love of my life what my problem isTry imagining being me Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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