this demon inside me

[bloody suicide]

here i am again 

in this deep hole of depression and hate.

i find myself running through the twists and turns in my mind.

so dark it is and so scary.

 

i seek oblivion. i get chaos.

i seek peace. i get anger.

i seek light. i get darkness.

i seek life. i want death.

 

this hate is trapped inside of me like a demon.

it claws at my insides.

it wants to control me.

its ferocious it is surely a killer.

 

it hides from love.

it hates light.

it has one friend.

her name is misery.

along with her sister named pain.

 

they rest and thrive together in the darkness.

like demons in the firey depths of hell.

they fill up my soul.

they whisper softly to me.

telling me harsh things.

 

[Alexia Biersack]

Wow. This almost made me cry. I understand every word. I've gone through this feeling.