the question

[Rawr I love you]

the question

that keeps me up at

night the question i always wonder

is why,

 

why always put myself down?

why do i constantly hurt

myself,?

 

i could always blame it on others

say its my family

or what others turned me into

buit no that would not be right i grew

up with a family

that loves and cares for me even

when it is rough,

 

those peoples words that cut me so deep

within can not and should not 

be able to make me do this

to myself,

 

i have to face the truth

i am fucked up inside

i can feel it beneath

my skin

 

how can i care

so much for others

and be cursed with such

hatred for myself?

this question will always be

a mystery that keeps me up night and day.

when the sun goes down and the moon comes up

it is always there waiting inside waitin to be discovered.