Everything and Nothing

[Apathy182]

Lost in a daze, monsoon raging on

laying here lifeless as the blood drips down the drain

Scars tattoo my lie story, each from a battle I wish I'd lost

each breath is agony, all days drag on and blur together

When one loses a passion too great, how does one fill the void left behind?

 

It's not a depression, nor a feeling of any kind.

Two sides of these coin so divided collide

Praying for the end as I lie awake,

these tremors are of a feeling to whom I can't connect.

 

Lost here without you,

How long must I go?

plagued by the memory of the best thing

I was to never know.

 

I wake on my own and wish that this is the last time I close my eyes

Maybe all isn't lost, but  nothing is yours

Not yours to hold, not yours to salvage

You can't save the unwilling, despite the desperation of their plea.

 

Sanity lost in the sands of time,

How do you now which version of reality is the on the plain that others see too?

Loosing interest in what once made you feel,

for now the only feeling is of simple existence, and asking yourself why

 

Dear God, please stop taunting me,

Each panic attack makes me crave Death that much more.

I'm beginning to think that such release for me

Is nothing but Lore

 

Dear Satan, if you're still after my soul,

Find the bastard who stole it,

\for it's not mine to give

As this isn't my life to live