the truth

[gabbitheawesome]

every smile is a lie

created to hide my sorrow

created to make you oblivious to the real me

every teardrop is the painful truth

that neither you or i want to believe

but when you need someone

to confide in

to have comfort in

dont come to me

because all the happy thoughts i told you about

about how my boyfriend didnt hurt me

about how my past doesnt still haunt me

were a lie

everything was a lie that i created

so you wouldnt get hurt

so you wouldnt have to carry my burdens

but in the end you left me

because i finally told the truth

because i decided to trust you

because i thought you wouldnt care

but i was wrong

so now im left here

with my mind and heart no longer connected

with my heart and soul in two different dimensions

with my mind and breath at war

and you decide to come back

because you felt sorry for me

because you wanted to correct your mistakes

well your wrongdoings

have already taken their toll

on me and my broken life

they made me stronger

they made me wiser

they made me know not to let you get that close to me anymore

and that isnt a lie

that

for once in my life

is the coldhard truth