deception

[bloody suicide]

DECEPTION

 

You are a deception,

you are a disgrace,

a problem and unwanted,

a mental illness.

 

a mutated creature,

a person with no control over my sanity,

a swirling vertex in my head,

soul gone,

heart shattered into chilling nothingness,

 

my mentality is escaping,

all your fault,

my emotions fading,

i blame you.

 

my pride becomes nothing,

my life becomes worthless,

and i become numb inside.

 

i thought you were different,

i thought you cared about me,

i thought wrong, I've been deceived,

by your lies.

 

you were the perfect deception,

you wore the perfect disguise,

i was foolish, stupid.

i believed in something that i am too

fucked up to receive.

 

i believed in you,

in your dreadful lies,

and your heartless ways.

and now with a knife to my throat,

and my blades to my wrist...

 

i cut so you will see what lies do to me,

i cut so you can see the river of my blood running to you.

i put the knife to my throat to show you what i think of my life,

while my darkness reach out their dark tendrils of pain,

and calls to me..asking..

begging me to finish it,

end my disgrace,

feel pain so my emotions could thaw out,

and i could feel my pain again...

[EmoxXWeaselXx]

i thoroughly read that...and i felt that. it hit me in the black hole of a heart that i have. i love it. keep up the awesome wrk