I Am A Masochistic Man

[helm]

I am a masochistic man.

I wonder when I can finally stop.

I hear the sip beat down on me as

I try not to fight.

I see my master holding me, saying he loves me.

I want to leave and not have such feelings anymore.

I am a masochistic man.

I pretend the pain really dose hurt.

I feel the weps on my back, the scars on my chest.

I touch them a lot when my master is not around

so I can get more pleasure for when he's not here.

I worry about how long I might live like this.

I cry every night wishing all this would stop.

I am a masochistic man.

I understand that I won't be over this soon.

I stay awake hoping when I can be free and leave.

I dream of flying with no thoughts nor cares nore worries.

I try to get him to stop and let me heal.

I hope to leave this all behind and live my life.

I am a masochistic man.

*Note*

I made this one time when i started to burn paper and metal then press it against my wrist.

I really felt like this every time when I would take in any kind of pain and laugh or fell happy about it.

This was made when i was 10 so if you don't understand it then i'm sorry.

[ConfusedSmileyChloe]

I totally get this. Great poem