monster

[PurpleKitty]

I feel so empty right now

I want to dig a hole and hide

I want to cry right now

But it’s this I need to hide

 

My ugly self that I have kept inside

You have seen and now I’m exposed

My ugly self I can no longer hide

You have seen my true self

 

You have seen the monster within

The one that has tortured me

Was myself as I am a monster

I hurt those around me

 

They may not notice now

But they will in the future

All I seem to do is hurt

Those that care about me

 

I don’t do it on purpose

But you wouldn’t believe me

I try to protect them

From myself as I am a monster

 

I push them away

When times are dangerous

They are not allowed to see

What I become when I am alone

 

I am selfish

I am guilty

I am ugly

I am a monster

 

I want to live

I deserve to die

I do my best

To survive

 

From the darkness

Cold tendrils reach for me

My time will come soon

Where I will leave this earth

 

But I cannot wait

I want it to end soon

To protect my family and friends

I will end it

 

I will destroy the monster

I will destroy myself

To protect them

The ones I love