what if people are right?

[rannon]

hi, i've been thinking lately, that i dont really like myself or who i am anymore. a while ago i got some personal messages from someone who may or may not be my friend, at first i felt angry and sad, but now i'm not so sure, because now its holidays, i havent been to school in a long time, and i've been basically alone with me and i've had a lot of time to reflect. i dont really think i'm good company, because i think i show too much about what i feel, and when i'm upset i seem to want people to care, i know thats stupid but i do, because if someone does it i think i can take the caring from them you know like show people how upset i am and they dont want to be around me, and i'm starting to feel like i dont want to be around me either. i care too much about what everyone else thinks and i just want them to like me, but yet i'm scared to even say hello, and then like some baby i panic when around people i dont know and think things i shouldnt, people see this, its scary its annoying, who wants to be around someone who is too fucking scared to be around them. i dont have any friends and i cant cope with being alone without them, i really try though, to get on with people but i'm pathetic and my efforts are stupid. i do dumb things i vow not to do and i hate myself for, there are things i do that i dont say that make me question what sort of a person i really am and if i can think the people who reject my way of life are bad, what should i think about me? in these messages i got a while ago i'm starting to realise they werent being nasty or horrible they were telling me what i needed to hear. because i have fucked up every friendship i've had and i burden people with shit they dont need to know and i scare people like this person said, i really scare people, i'm the bully and i dont even mean to be, i really hate that and i wish i could be better, more real more kind but i think i cant, because i will always be that person who fucks it up, every time. and i dont know what to do, there comes a point when i feel like i should just stop trying to better and happier and liked, because i am never going to be wanted if i dont even want myself

[Guest Moon_Panda]

c'mon you just want to be accepted and correct me if i'm wrong i think you have been a bit negleacted as a child by everyone in yor life.

you just have so much bottled up inside you that all of it just poors out at any moment.

i think you lack the people you can and want to talk to.

[EvilActivity]

Whenever you feel bad or guilty about being a bitch, stick a huge pin in the bigot voodoo doll of your choice and feel whole again.

 

Don't try too hard to be liked. Trust me until you've lost your reputation, you never realize what a burden it was, or what freedom really is. I believe we create our own reality, there are no victims only volunteers. People who take offense add more misery to the world than those who dish it out because there are more of them. Self pity is for those who wallow around in shit and love it. Wash yourself of this need for approval. Or... you could go with notthatguy and keep looking.... it's your life at the end of the day. *shrugs*.

[XxPocketSizedEmoVampirexX]

dont try as hard to get people to like you...just be yourself and try to loosen up a bit...people will like you eventually. if your telling things to people that they dont need to kno, dont tell them...only tell the people ur most closest to cuz they will understand u more.

i kno wanting and loving urself is hard...its hard for most girls these days, mayb just start doing things u like, get happy, do things you enjoy. mayb try new things to explore wat type of person u r...

if u keep saying u hate urself n dont want urself...thats gonna stay like that...

try see the positives now and then...

sum people make friends harder than others...its easier to make friends wiv people who hav similar traits to you...mayb join sum sort of club that u enjoy so u can hang wiv people like you...

[Amz]

Agreeing with them .

 

People should like you for who you are