feeling...

[Guest Moon_Panda]

betrayed and hated

lifeless and faded.

a myserable unhappy wreck

disguised as a meaningless speck.

if i would die

i wouldn't be important enough to cry.

feeling alone and lifeless

trying to diguise my oddness.

cut and bleed.

every drop of blood.

with a razor

i draw on my skin.

as i draw i feel nothing

cos pain doesn't hurt

when its all you'v ever felt

 

so say goodbye

bid your farewells

i hang from my sorrow

i shoot myself with my rage.

bottled up emotions

released and set free.

every story of wich i think

each and everyone, into the blackness they sink.

at day i smile

pretend and lie.

but at night i can be me.

Wild and free.

 

im nothing special

i am just a human.

as pathetic and as vile as i stand

i must hold my own hand.

no love will be lost

no price for the cost.

my world is my own

you live as is shown.

i shy away from the light

because it wakens my sight.

i embrayse the night.

and wallow in my own plight.

 

its not like me

to live in a dream

i don't hold myself up

as the world to me, i am shut.

once i live

my life that is illconcived.

i recongnize my own way

as i set off i say.

don't miss me

don't care about me.

i know you lie

i know you realy don't care.

 

i know i am meant to walk alone

i know i will forever be alone.

no help

no dreams

no sleep

no love that gleams.

just me myself and I

but still i woun't cry.

wounded and beaten

broken and forgotten

as this world i search and roam

i am left on my own

 

as life leaves me

as noone cryes for me

i am just another name and a face

of me there is no trace

just passed by

to say '' hi ''

i wouldn't have stayed long anyway

there was no place for me to say

 

don't pretend you care

i know life isn't fair

i got by just fine

and now i say good by, fade away, and quietly die.

[xXPaulLuvsUmbreonXx]

its really good...... but I wish I can hug u and make u fell better