my pain

[bloody suicide]

bloody thoughts envelope my mind

why might i have to suffer?

why am i so dark?

can i never escape the painful depths of my own darkness?

 

it hurts too much...

my resolve is weakining how can i make it strengthen?

i wish to go back to the blade

i want to bleed..

i want this painful darkness to end..

im tired of the dark tears that stream down my cheeks..

im tired of the thunderous beating of my heart as i cry.

im tired of feeling

im tired of hoping things will get better.

i just want it all to end.

i keep looking, watching..

i see other people live their lives hapily..

i want my own heart to be at ease..

 

instead of being at ease..

i panic, i cry, cut, and wish for an ending.

i wish for me to be forgotten

i wish to not be noticed.

i wish too end my suffering and pain.

i wish for emptiness and oblivion.