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I wait for you To hear me cry To see me screaming To watch me die Maybe one day You'll understand But until then Its in my hands The tears are falling Like the rain Little confused Little insane Maybe one day You will see My tears are falling What you mean to me Each single breath I breathe for you Everything I think Everything I do

I was so dumb. I was learning love. I was so broken. I thought you would fix me up. But the entire time, I placed my heart on the line. And you killed it for the moment. That's a lie. Because it takes longer than half the amount of time "we" were. See how I cringe at the word. And you didn't deserve a thing I said. I told myself that inside my head. But you were a boy. You did what boys do. You made me feel like shit. As if it were my fault. But you knew. So you answered my calls and let me cry. I still don't understand why. I swear I wouldn't have fell, If it weren't for your eyes. I vaguely remember Valentines day of 2010. Because I traced your name in the snow on my window sill high up above the ground. I made a silent wish that the thought would be found. And it was. And then it was thrown out of the window of a hippy van speeding fast. I bet it was the night after the dance. Because the memory of it was drained from my mind the second I left. And I racked my brain just to forget. I wrote you more letters than you really deserved. And I couldn't take a hint when you told me they were too long. I really only remember in bits and fucking pieces. I stood with a white flower in the stairwell, waiting. I'm not waiting anymore. I waited everyday. every. day. The memories of you are pretty hollow. They're fake. They're plastic in every form. I didn't know you. You never knew me. I was stupid. I was a dumb girl learning love. There was nothing. After a year of stalking, I left you alone. And if I ever come back to that cozy town to visit, Maybe I'll have the courage to see the gate to your house and keep out.