letting him go? </3

[PurpleKitty]

My stomach tumbles and turns

I cant help but think that its what I deserve

In my chest my heart burns

A fire of which I created

 

I fell down hard

It was not my choice

I fell down pretty bad

I should have stopped

It but it was out of my control

 

I was blind now I see

All the lies he told to me

He promised me forever

But deep down I knew he wouldnt deliver

 

My mind and soul

Tired of aruging

No longer know what to do

My mind a confused turmoil

My soul in a constant conflict

 

I knew I would die

But never knew

It would be from the inside

Im being torn apart

 

It seems that I shall always be hurt

A fact that I need to deal with

It seems I shall be forever alone

For there is no one I can trust

Always betrayed by those who claim to love me

 

I need to let him go

I need to let him free

He is no longer mine

For I dont deserve him

 

It hurts me so

But this is how it supposed to be

It can never be

For how do I know if he loves me?

I will never know.........

 

But still no matter what he did

I dont want to let him go

I am horrible and selfish

I no longer deserve him