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Goodbye mom, Goodbye dad. Please don't blame yourself, And don't be sad. Goodbye sister, Goodbye brother. Please be good, For mother and father. Goodbye lover, Goodbye friends. Please don't forget, All the time we had spent. Goodbye teachers, Goodbye bully. Please move on, Though you may not remember me. Goodbye everyone, My time is near. Goodbye world, My time is here.

What Lies Within Within the world, there is life. Within life, there are secrets. Within secrets, there are lies. Within lies, there is a partial truth. Within that partial truth, is insecurity. Alongside insecurity, is guilt. Following that guilt, is sadness. After sadness, is pain. Trailing such pain, is anguish. In the shadow of anguish, is frustration. Dragging behind frustration, is lack of interest. Due to lack of interest, you die every single day. With every waking moment of your miserable life You repeat this cycle, Only to find yourself in a rut. A Conversation with One’s Inner Self Time after time, day after day And you still haven’t destroyed yourself! What’s wrong with you? Just get it over with! Do it! DO IT! …..But I can’t…. Of course you can’t; You don’t have the balls to end this; To end this cycle, your own existence. Well if you’re not going to do it, then I’ll grow a pair for you; I’ll end you myself!

All these kids around me, they'll never understand how broken and depressed I am. They'll never know I hide scars and cuts under my bracelets. They'll never see that words really do hurt. They'll never see my tears. They'll never see how much I hurt deep down inside. They'll never realize I fake a smile everyday. They'll never understand what I've gone through in my past. They'll never feel how I felt in my past and present. They'll never understand me.

Six little butterflies fly in a straight line on my wrist. Should I kill them one by one or all at once? After all, they are pretty ugly.

Beautiful creatures unlike any other Whose lives are determined on Who knows one another Not designated to go anywhere In reality only some really care But life will go on Even in this awful town

I'm living in a world of pain. I'm living in a world of hurt. I'm living in a world of sorrow. Hiding behind a wall, I fake a smile and cover my scars, hoping to hide all my emotions from my friends. I hide my pain behind a fake smile, my scars under a jacket, and as for my tears, I just hold them in, waiting till the night when I can drown my sorrows in a pillow. I am alone in this world. A world of sorrow and pain. A world of disappointment and grief. I'm stuck in a horrible world, and I don't know what to do.

Swear It! (verse1) You, swear it by the night it's, only left or right. We, hold it still and fast while you, think about your past. You know, we never would've won if you, never would've come. We think, everything you do is just, something I get used to. (chorus) Well I'll sleep tonight, knowing you're not by my side. Knowing how this will end, knowing when to call it quits. I hope you sleep well darling knowing I'm yours, you will, always be my girl you will always be my world and I know, sorrow plays on both our hearts, trying to tear us apart. But you already know it won't as long as you please don't go. I'm sorry I'm not there I love you more than anything it just hurts when you're gone when you're always on the run fromm your fears, my dear, it's alright. (verse2) (SO BREAK!) Can't you feel my heart? Beating faster from afar. No one knows what's happening no one knows the fatality (THAT YOU!) Give me heart attacks, I'm always gunna have your back. I love you so much more, than anyone could ever endure. It seems THAT this reality, is nothing but a lucid dream. I'll hold you in my arms tonight, we'll fall asleep and fly up high. WAY past the starline...you know you look so beautiful tonight. (chorus)

i sat there forced to whatch you in your despair all i could do was whatch and stare i couldnt do a thing to save your life i had to whatch you in your strife you said you were fine but i know you lied i had to whatch you when you died now your gone and i am lost your death had the highest cost now im lost in my despair while others can only whatch and stare they cant do a thing to save my life but sit and whatch me in my strife i say im fine but they know i lie they must sit and whatch me die.

Why am I queit? Bc Im sad I've been through mostly bad... I walk with my head down I wear a frown... I try hiding this side... No longer filled with pride... I'm starting to fade Into darkness Broken and heartless.. I'm just a fucking mess.. No one knows what's wrong I've been trough this for so long I try to talk about it But I lose it... My throat clenched... Tears filling my eyes I start to cry... I don't want it to show I dont want you to know.. The pain is just to strong I can no longer hold on.. Fake smiles or none at all... I feel so fucking small... I run from my fears And worry about the things near.. It's harder to focus for a while As I try to put on a smile.. I have no ones shoulder to cry on All my happiness is gone. I cry and start feeling sick It feels like in my heart there's a sharp stick.. How long will this go on? I can't stay strong. I'm way to weak I dont want to speak.. I look in the mirror The tears coming nearer.. My eyes all red The sadness I dread.. The tears stream down my face As I lose my place.. Why am I crying? I feel like dieing. What's wrong with me Happiness is what I can't see.. I used to be happy and energetic Now I'm just pathetic... I used to be crazy and wound But then I start falling to the ground.. Depression I found.. Now I'm dark Stuck here with no heart... Quiet and alone No one to pull me home.. I'm so much different you see This isn't the real me.. Calling me names Bc I'm mean You haven't seen... You don't know I'm depressed I'm just a big mess... I try not to show No one can know... But the pain is pouring out I want to scream and shout This isn't what I'm all about. The pain inside The tears I cry... As I slowly die... You'd still never know... Why this side of me starts to show. Distractions only last so long Soon I'll be gone... I hold it in a day And cry when people go away... Fine one minute Gone the next I'm an emotional wreck Nothing but a mess... Why do we love the people that cause us pain.. It drives me insane... I'll do whatever it takes To be the mistake You can't live without... You know my name Not my story You know what I've done Not what I've been through. Happiness straight from the bottle When real life's to hard to swallow. You left me here Like a chalkoutline On the sidewalk Waitin for the rain To wash away... Loving the ones I Miss That made me feel like shit The way you made me feel The pain never heals You go through my mind All the time I hope you come back But in my heart there's a big long crack.. Al these dreams washed away Happiness doesn't stay... Tears stream down my face Ive lost my place Lieing here in darkness Broken and heartless Alone and lost.. My chance is in the past Nothing good ever lasts... Walking with my head down Music is the only sound... I'm not in the mood I'm covered in wounds.. I don't want to talk just go away I'm really not okay.. You see the look in my eyes The tears I cry.. Ask me what's wrong You'd never understand I'm stuck Sinking in this sand... Someone give me a hand and help me move.. Happiness is what I lose.. Falling and hitting the floor I have nothing more... Words fall music speaks... I'm way to weak... Someone help me back on my feet.. Bit by bit things start to fall apart What once is my heart is crushed And this pain is sharp.. Sometimes I don't even know what's wrong I've been hiding it in all along. Cry for no reason Alone through the seasons... I need help But no one hears my yelp... These crazy thoughts go through my mind.. Happiness is something I can't find. Words unsaid That familiar pound In my head There's no light I'm filled with fright... All these thoughts day and might I've lost the fight Done holding on Everything is gone...

Ok, so I've recently been writing a few poems, and so far these are the absolute best. The Rainbow Concept Red is the fuel of my passion Orange, the setting sun Yellow is malicious jealousy Green, the Earth around everyone Blue is the depression within Indigo for the tears I cry Violet sends up my prayers To white fluffy clouds in the sky Where angels sit and watch over me And sing a song ever so sweetly All right, so that one wasn't phenomenal, but this one I think several will appreciate... (and yes I know the previous poem references to the title of this one. that was the point XD) The Depression Within Teary eyes Icy stones Shattered minds Broken bones The deepest earth The darkest sea Yet still no one Dares cry for me The blue Abyss The crushing weight The raging turmoil Dark waves of hate Save me from the deep In the black ocean I drown And my bitter heart Keeps dragging me down I hope you liked ~ I'll be posting more soon :3

Are there certain stratagies you use to get yourself out of a depressing mood?

I let the lies get inside of me I let them tell me what was right and wrong You told her all the things you had wished i said.. You had made up lies just to get her mad at me Well they worked Good job Good job at almost ruining my life, making me almost commit suicide, start cutting and make me realize who's my friend and who's not Good job